Jenfessionals

[Jen Johnson]

Okay so the tribe isn't so bad. I still need to talk to Ian a bit more but then I've covered everyone? Except out inactives of course. Elavia and that John person. Like ew. I like Nikki. I like Clint. I don't mind Cyndi...I feel like I'm missing someone? Lol. Such a mess. We won the first challenge so like we didn't have to trim the fat yet. i don't know what else to talk about? i need to talk more to the more active players so I can situate myself. i'd probably be able to survive two TCs without worry. the following one would start to get worse unless i picked up my social game. I've just been so fucking lazy and its so hard to remember to log on aim. I got serious drunk during the first challenge and it took me two days to fully recover.

[Jen Johnson]

Okay so I made a cute little alliance with Ian the other night. I think I have one still going with Clint but he's probably the most social of the tribe? Poor kid. He wants to excel but this tribe is blocking him from doing so. As for the vote, we're voting for Elavia. I don't worry about my submission, I know it sucks because we probably still could have won but in the end, we have fat to trim. If we lose again, we have one more buffer before I start to get my name thrown around. That's going to be a bitch because I don't have much to defend myself. I should start building a case for when the time comes. I guess thats why I started working on Ian and hopefully I can reach out to Cyndi and Nikki again. Like I should be able to do something. IDEK if Colin exists anymore, I should track him down and message him. I don't even remember meeting the guy. Thats the one I forgot about in my last confessional, awkward!

[Jen Johnson]

This is a Jenfessional coming in from yours truly. Jen. Omg okay so lets get discussing the previous round. we lost the challenge because Cyndi shit the bed. Like what a stupid bitch but I get it, she's retarded. So whatever. we lost and we're going to vote for John. Clint pulls me aside and says that i need to work with him no matter what to protect me and him. im like okay? sooo I listen because obviously I'm open for anything. He tells me we HAVE to vote for Cyndi and we'll have majority on the tribe. Now I was already worried I was going to be next after John, so this was the BEST opportunity to survive a few more tribals. After listening to Clint and his crazy plans, I basically told them to Nikki, Colin and Cyndi. I needed to set Clint and Ian up for death so I can get to a swap. And thats exactly what I did last night. Eventually I wanted to blindside Clint last night but not enough people were online to change their votes. So that plan was thrown into the garbage and we all just voted for John and made Clint a fool for ever suggesting someone elses name. I feel like I have a good alliance with Colin, Nikki and Cynd. ON top of that, I have a good threesome going with Cynd and Nikki. Could probably progress into something more.

[Jen Johnson]

YAY Clint was voted out and we swapped. FINALLY. I'm voting for Rupert because he's ianctive and Lisi because shes the dumb bitch that put Rupert in the challenge. I've also made an alliance with Joa, Kat, Gochran and Ian to vote off original white. We're trying to blindside Lisi just in case she has the idol. I could probably work on both sides. With Fred/Fatima next round me and Ian could help them out. I'll iron details later.

[Jen Johnson]

Okay so this vote gets a little tricker. we want to vote out Lisi because she may have the idol. So the threesome of Cochran, Joe and Kat are getting me and Ian to help them take out a possible idol. The amAzing thing about this is all is that Fred and Fatima will be blindsided. While they're upset, I'll rub in salt in the wound and tell them they thought Fred had the idol and made an alliance with me and Ian to take out the three of them. However, I'll mention to her that Ian liked Lisi and wanted to work with the three of them, when I had mentioned that I liked Fred to him. But we figured it'd be better to even the playing field between the two sides. I spoke to Ian about it and we could potentially play the middle. Say we lost Immunity and we had to vote two more people out. I'd rather be in an alliance of 4 than an alliance of five where, Ian and I are minority. At least with Fatima and Fred, we could make a tight foursome. We can vote out Cochran and Kat. I don't even care which as long as whoever I choose by that time..leaves. This is Jen Johnsons game. tonight i'll let the Lisi vote slide. I hate her. She's fucking stupid and she'll rot in hell. This is of course everything works tonight. I could be leaving but I doubt it? lol.

[Jen Johnson]

What a round. So last round, we basically voted out Rupert because he was INV and made us lose the challenge. Lisi was a fucking idiot and put him in the challenge list, where he'd play a pivotal role in winning the challenge for us. And hes our token INV. Like she's so fucking dumb. I wanted to vote her out ever since. Ian was supposed to be with me in this but he decided to be a fucking idiot and try to tie the votes, without telling me. So we ended up with a 4-4 vote. He tried to get me to switch by saying this was our best route in the game. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Why didn't you tell me fuck nuts? instead, he made an ass out of me and made me vote with the other side. Why on earth would I side with you after I voted against one of the people you sided with? NO THANK YOU. Fuck you too Ian. I prayed to god for him to pick the purple rock and he did. BYE IAN. Tonight should be easy. Yeah we lost the IC and its all Fat, Fred and Lisi's faults. They're fucking stupid and I can't wait to vote out Fatima. Kat and John wanted to vote out Fred first but I wanted Fatima and Lisi out. So I pushed and now we're voting for Fatima like I WANT. THis is MY GAME. This is Jen you're speaking too. Sorry not sorry Cuntima.

[Jen Johnson]

Ugh- This challenge is 50/50. I have no idea if we can pull a win or not but I'm praying we do. Why? Because I think we're merging at the F12 and I desperately need new life. I made a great alliance with Kat, Joa and John. But I can't keep that if we have to vote out two other people. I'm going through several things in my head on ways I could TRY and take out one of their core three. Sadly, I think it's almost impossible to break. I think I have a good connection with Joa and I've tried to establish that Kat/John have something close. I need to start speaking to Kat more and trying to get on her good side. I don't trust her but I don't want her voting me out after Fred leaves. This is if we lose because if we do...it'll be a circus here. I was thinking of bringing up the point to Joa that there will be several of his old tribe mates left in the game in a F12 merge and that will make them targets. But I'm sure if they were one less number, it wouldn't look as bad. John is a mild threat. Nothing too big but I can see him being someone who can slide through in a merge. Maybe I can sell that too. I don't think I can crack Kat and Joa. Maybe Joa will tie the vote for me and I can try at a TB challenge. First things first, lets fucking win this challenge and get me the fuck out of this tribe. I'm jen fucking johnson.

[Jen Johnson]

FUCK. We lost again. What the fuck is wrong with us? I totally bombed the challenge and did the same as Joa. So I don't feel that bad lol. This round will test my alliances with Kat and Joa individually. I think I've kept up a pretty good rapport with Joa and I think he trusts me. MAYBE even enough to keep me until the merge. I've thrown around the idea of me being a double agent with my original three in the merge to see where idols are at. Perhaps another one is floating around. We know that one of the three from Fred's original tribe over on Rav have it. My guess is that the three from my original tribe have aligned themselves against Joa's original tribe. Why? Because by the looks of it, they can be SIX strong in a possible merge of 12. I tried to convince Kat and Joa to vote out John in hopes of making their tribe less of a target in the merge. With only five, its not such a driving force. They could be lying to me thinking I have some kind of idol or something but its all I got. This first tribal council we're supposed to vote out Fred. If they wanted to blindside me because they thought I had an idol, they could do it this tribal. We'll see how it goes but I want to get to the merge and I think it'll be next round. If its not, we're totally fucked if we lose the challenge. I'm totally fucked but I could MAYBE sell to Joa that I'm horrible in challenges and he might wanna go up against me rather than Kat. And I'll say the same thing to Kat because I'm sure if we're down to 2 and someone had to leave, we'd do a challenge or some shit. Then I could hulk smash his face and Id go to the merge by myself <3 Lol I need to get through this round first though. I hate feeling on edge but I do believe I'll get through this. At least I'm trying. I'm Jen Johnson.

[Jen Johnson]

This is the round of truth. I've solidified an alliance with both Joa and Kat. I truly hope they believe me and want to work with me long term. Enough to get rid of John and keep me to the F12. If we have another challenge to do, then fuck my life. Maybe we'll win and the lords will give us a break. I'm praying for a merge after this round. Hopefully all of this works. I'm voting for John now. In a merge, it's going to be extremely messy. Its like four groups of three. 3 from our tribe and the 3-3-3 of the original tribes on the NuRav.

[Jen Johnson]

We finally fucking won a challenge. It only took a month. Had we lost, it was going to be between me, Kat and Joa. I had made an agreement to face off against Joe. He felt like I was worst in challenges. Thats kinda what I was going to sell to him in the first place. Its hit or miss if I could beat him in a tb. Thankfully we didn't have to do that. We got confirmation that we're also merging which changes this game completely. The dynamics are going to be extremely weird. On the other tribe, it was like 3-3-3. We only just witnessed their first tribal council and they voted out one of the last remaining White. We don't know why..we thought they would try to eliminate one of the original tribe members of Kat and Joa. The merge could be a 5-4-1 situation. I'd most likely side with Joa and Kat on that one. They can't trust the three of them that side with them. Eventually they'd put their trust in me and try to dismantle the threesome of their original tribe. Should they actually be something. I could be over thinking it. These people could have absolutely nothing going on. I'm going to try and get myself into a nice position because I didn't survive all of these fucking tribal councils for nothing. It's been a hellish journey.

[Jen Johnson]

so we merged and everything's about to blow up. I can feel it. Maybe its just me and I'm all paranoid and I'll cause the drama but its no fun without it. The second we merged, I ran back to Nikki and Cyndi. I wanted them to think I was 100% with them still and that I can't believe I survived the other tribe. My story is pretty basic, I thought Ian was with me and he turned against me. I like to blame it all on Ian for what side I fell with. When he tied the vote, he got rocked out and I continued to side with the three that voted with me. blah blah. Once it got down to 4, I basically told Nikki and Cyndi that I tried to make the two purple think that having six purples in the merge is a threat. I can't really downplay the alliance I have with Kat and Joa. Its completely obvious. But the important thing here is that we have each other and I doubt they'll vote me out. Once Joa and Kat find out that Cyndi/Nikki want to vote them out, they'll instantly be with me. I trust they wouldn't go crazy and tell on me. They hardly know the sluts. *flips hair* anyway, if I look at the numbers, I don't really have much room to pull a move. I want to work with Joa and Kat still. I actually want them in the F3 lol. But Nikki/Cyndi/Colin have something going on for sure. I can't break that unless I made one of them out to be a threat. But something tells me Cyndi and Colin are idiots. They have this connection to Priya/Grant/GinaMarie that brought the six of them together against Carissa/Eddie/Sean. Sean survived like a true black brother. Sean is basically the only person singled out. Yes, I could pull him in and make a four person voting block. But this is where I stop and think. I'd need two more votes to get my way. Thats a lot of work. Especially considering I have no idea how close the three NuRav-Purples are with each other. And how truly close they are to Nikki, Cyndi and Colin. *Rolls eyes* whhaaat do i do? I suppose I can investigate and check out their relationships. if I can't do anything to save one of Sean, Joa or Kat then I might have to let one of them go. Ideally it'd be Sean and I can keep Joa/Kat and their connections to the original Purple. I need that. This is where I'm debating with myself. When I tell Kat/Joa that Rav wants to vote for them, I want to know what kind of connections we could use with original purple to take out maybe...Colin. Honestly, if I was going to vote someone out, I'd choose like Nikki because she's the glue holding my old tribe together. Once she's gone, I'd probably solidify EXTREME trust with Sean, Joa and Kat. Then Gina, Grant and Priya, depending how they voted, could feel indifferent towards me and haven't a reason to turn on me when Cyndi and Colin seek revenge. This is MAKING ME WET. Or I can go the boring way, vote out Sean and the the following round hope to make a move against the three of them. I trust my old tribe but I don't. And I have this strange feeling that I need to do something about them. I'm not stupid. I don't fucking trust any of them for end game. I just went through hell and back. Now I'm going back to hell. I trust who I trust. I know when to not trust someone. The goal here is to make them trust me enough these next couple of rounds so that when I do slut their throats, it's quick and easy.

[Jen Johnson]

This round has become chaotic and its all because of me. I'm so special, I just can't even with myself right now. So I wanted to take out NIkki for awhile and I think this is the best time to do it. If she has some kind of idol then I'm fucked but I don't think she does? I think I have enough votes to at least tie the vote. Which in that case, Nikki would be Immune during rocks. Some people are idiots....Like Sean and Grant. Who don't seem to understand that by voting for Nikki, its going to make her Immune in a tie. Thats not what we want. lol anyway, earlier last night, I spoke to Grant and I offered him the Immunity if he voted with us and made it a tie. That way he was okay during the rocks. I figured once I wasn't immune, they'd vote for me and I trusted the five voting with me. So I'd probably be Immune during the rock ceremony as well. Thats Me, Joa, Kat, Sean and Grant. I had to get one more vote to secure Nikki's death but Priya is very shady. I think she already told Nikki that I'm suggesting we vote her out. Priya is more of an annoyance than anything. Im trying to scare her into voting for Nikki because rocks would suck and especially for her side because thats 4 people vulnerable to pick the purple rock. Whereas our side would have three. UGH I hate rocks. I hope Priya just listens like a good bitch and votes for Nikki. Her leaving would change everything. I'm such a queen bitch. The next round, I'm going to run it again and again. I was SO FUCKING HOT winning the first Individual Immunity challenge. I owned that BB mini and I haven't played a mini in FOREVER.

[Jen Johnson]

This round is total chaos and its not supposed to be. I won Immunity again because I'm Jen Johnson and the goal was to eliminate Priya. The second I beat her, it was like hell broke loose. I come online the next morning and Kat messages me saying everyone changed the vote to Cyndi. I asked her why and she lost it on me saying they already discussed it and they are nOT changing the vote. What the fuck? why would we even switch it over to Cyndi before Priya? And every time I asked for a logical reason, she failed to give it to me. Which meant only one thing in my mind, the purples were coming back together this round and trying to run the merge with it. That fucking sucks. So I'm trying to scare Colin, Cyndi and my boy sean into voting with me against Priya tonight. I'm hoping it works. I'd need one more vote and both Joa and Grant have let me down. I dont think they'll trust me after this round but whatever. I'll get through it like I always do and I'll crush everyones dreams. My last attempt was to reach out at GinaMarie and see if she'd vote Priya with me, Cyndi, Colin and Sean. If I successfully get this blindside to happen, I should be golden for the following round. Yes, I can see people trying to vote me out but I think if Colin, Cyndi, Gina and Sean were to vote with me after tonight, they'd vote with me again when I provide them with ammo to target Kat at F8. Shes probably the biggest social threat remaining in the game. Everyone adores her but she's fucking annoying. All she talks about is fucking her life and her fucking relationship. No one gives a flying fuck. She says all their names like we know them personally. "Brett" this and "Amanda" that. and this that, this guy, this girl. Like I don't care. She can't have one conversation without saying something like "Just putting the little guy to sleep" or "just relaxing, little guy is sick" "anyone know why my little guy is bleeding?" omfg. die bitch, die. I'll make you bleed. TONIGHT THERE WILL BE BLOOD.

[Jen Johnson]

Im clearly the winner of this game. I mean, who else can win this shit? UGH I know...Joa or Kat. Fucking stupid bitches. The two people I wanted to go to the end with and Joa was a pussy shit and Kat ruined it. So whatever, I want them dead. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I want them DEAD. I should have had it easy. I had GinaMarie, Sean, Cyndi and Colin all working for me and suddenly, Sean and GinaMarie's stupidity combined lost us our edge over Grant, Kat and Joa. GinaMarie sent away Cyndi from Tribal Council, which meant she couldn't vote. So Joa used his double vote and they voted for Gina, who most likely had an auto-vote from Sean's boot list. I don't even think he came online to vote. -_- What a fucker. So he ruined our chances and Gina Marie was raped. Whatever, one less person I have to betray, moving on. this round is even worse because he hasn't even PMd me once. I can't fucking stand him and its all gonna go down to his boot list and I'll bet he has Cyndi on there next. She has our only item to help the Rav Three in the F6... and now its gonna be flushed down the shitter because the fucking nigger can't come online to vote. If he did come online last round and vote Gina Marie purposely, then I fucking hate his guts but I don't think he did that...But him coming online and NOT PMing about his vote really angers me. I don't even think he read the fucking PM. Ugh, I'm so frustrated. I really hope Grant just leaves. I really, really can't stand him. You'd think I should just stick to voting for kat or joa but they got something from those boxes they aren't telling me about and I'd rather not find out. I should have tried to force it out while I'm Immune but I plan on winning my fifth.