My Thoughts

[Fatima Siad]

I'm here now. I didn't realize these were mandatory (I overlooked that part in the rules). Sorry about last episode. In short, I'm a gorgeous woman who is ready to take on the world. I'm juggling a modeling career as well, so I may not be totally here all the time just yet. I can't wait to cast votes so I can show off my portfolio. #freepublicity

[Fatima Siad]

(9:40:08 PM) carissa.gaghan: Hey. :-)
(9:40:16 PM) carissa.gaghan: Have you done either of the cryptograms yet?
(9:42:45 PM) EuroFatima: Not yet, no.
(9:43:38 PM) carissa.gaghan: Okay. Do you have one you'd rather do?
(9:45:26 PM) EuroFatima: I haven't seen the challenge yet. I was stuck in a LIVE one and am now in an obligation.
(9:45:38 PM) EuroFatima: If it's a choosing thing, you can pick. I'll take what's left since I fail. lol
(9:45:52 PM) carissa.gaghan: There's an easy one and a hard one.
(9:45:58 PM) carissa.gaghan: That's literally all we know. lol
(9:46:25 PM) EuroFatima: I can take the hard if you'd like.
(9:46:57 PM) carissa.gaghan: Okeydokey. You're probably better at it than I am.
(4/9/2015 9:59:00 PM) carissa.gaghan: Hi Fatima :-)
(10:05:17 PM) EuroFatima: hello
(10:05:34 PM) carissa.gaghan: How are you today?
(10:09:28 PM) EuroFatima: I'm okay. Just reading something online.
(10:09:30 PM) EuroFatima: You?
(10:09:41 PM) carissa.gaghan: Relaxing after work.
(10:10:03 PM) carissa.gaghan: Looks like you and me are paired together for the challenge. I gotta do it tonight though because i work all day tomorrow.
(10:10:16 PM) carissa.gaghan: I can be up all night tonight though, so just let me know when you wanna do it. :-)
(10:16:02 PM) EuroFatima: Is 11 good for you?
(10:16:23 PM) carissa.gaghan: Sure!
(10:59:46 PM) EuroFatima: So we message Kittie?
(10:59:59 PM) carissa.gaghan: Yeah.
(11:03:54 PM) carissa.gaghan: We message Audrey at CottonCandyThrob
(11:20:21 PM) carissa.gaghan: Found it.
(11:20:24 PM) carissa.gaghan: Posted it.
(11:20:32 PM) EuroFatima: Which was it?
(11:20:39 PM) carissa.gaghan: J24
(11:20:41 PM) EuroFatima: Do we both post it?
(11:21:15 PM) carissa.gaghan: Just one of us.
(11:21:17 PM) carissa.gaghan: We're done.
(11:21:21 PM) carissa.gaghan: 3 minutes. :-)
(11:21:29 PM) EuroFatima: That was rather easy.
(11:21:31 PM) EuroFatima: Good job.
(11:21:40 PM) EuroFatima: I had 3 keys to try still before J24. lol
(11:21:52 PM) carissa.gaghan: How were you trying to do it?
(11:22:08 PM) EuroFatima: I opened a few up then started plugging them in and closing the tabs as I did.
(11:22:12 PM) carissa.gaghan: Ahh.
(11:22:23 PM) carissa.gaghan: I did it the opposite lol. I just randomly clicked.
(11:22:28 PM) EuroFatima: lol
(11:22:30 PM) carissa.gaghan: It was my 6th key
(11:22:34 PM) carissa.gaghan: 7th*

[Fatima Siad]

(12:48:44 AM) Lisi Linares: u there?
(12:50:54 AM) EuroFatima: I am.
(12:51:21 AM) Lisi Linares: so i was talking with Fredders
(12:51:25 AM) Lisi Linares: and we're still not sure
(12:51:29 AM) Lisi Linares: on who to bring in
(12:51:35 AM) Lisi Linares: out of Sean/Eddie
(12:51:39 AM) Lisi Linares: do you have thoughts?
(12:51:55 AM) EuroFatima: I've not had a lasting conversation with either.
(12:52:16 AM) Lisi Linares: im gonna make a chat
(12:52:17 AM) Lisi Linares: with us 3
(12:54:45 AM) EuroFatima: Ok.
(4/10/2015 1:08:44 AM) Lisi Linares: you there, girl?
(1:09:38 AM) EuroFatima: I am.
(1:10:07 AM) Lisi Linares: okay so if you found the idol
(1:10:11 AM) Lisi Linares: would you tell me?
(1:10:29 AM) EuroFatima: Of course!
(1:10:42 AM) Lisi Linares: and you didn't?
(1:10:49 AM) EuroFatima: No, should I have?
(1:10:56 AM) Lisi Linares: okay cuz Fredders found out from Eddie
(1:10:59 AM) Lisi Linares: the idol has been taken
(1:11:05 AM) EuroFatima: Already?
(1:11:10 AM) EuroFatima: Wow, that's quick.
(1:11:10 AM) Lisi Linares: I guess the PW was Prague
(1:11:12 AM) Lisi Linares: yea
(1:11:19 AM) Lisi Linares: so try to find a way
(1:11:24 AM) Lisi Linares: to cleverly fish around
(1:11:26 AM) Lisi Linares: and ask around
(1:11:34 AM) Lisi Linares: we're thinking it has to be Johnny or Sean
(1:11:36 AM) Lisi Linares: probably Johnny
(1:13:20 AM) EuroFatima: This tribe just became complicated.
(1:13:27 AM) Lisi Linares: yea
(1:13:32 AM) Lisi Linares: I dont really care if its Sean
(1:13:36 AM) Lisi Linares: cuz i think we could rope him in
(1:13:40 AM) Lisi Linares: but......Johnny?
(1:15:32 AM) EuroFatima: Yeah, I don't feel all that comfortable with the idea of him having it.
(1:15:56 AM) Lisi Linares: well i was telling
(1:15:59 AM) Lisi Linares: Fredders
(1:16:07 AM) Lisi Linares: Rupert is an easy decoy
(1:16:08 AM) Lisi Linares: for a boot
(1:16:13 AM) Lisi Linares: that'd be the perfect time
(1:16:18 AM) Lisi Linares: to send his ass out
(1:16:27 AM) EuroFatima: Smart.
(1:16:34 AM) EuroFatima: If she's down for the idea, you can count on me.
(1:16:39 AM) Lisi Linares: here lets talk in our 3 person chat

[Fatima Siad]

(12:56:04 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) kk it should be changed now
(12:56:28 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Love it <3
(12:58:37 AM) EuroFatima: It's perfect.
(1:02:23 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) im attempting the hard version
(1:02:27 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) of this slider puzzler
(1:02:35 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) this is fucking created from the depths of hell
(1:03:32 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I'm gonna give the jigsaws a shot in a bit, I think I can do decent enough at least
(1:03:41 AM) EuroFatima: I like sliders. ^.^
(1:04:23 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) i feel i just need practice
(1:04:25 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) my technique is horrible
(1:04:46 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) dont know how to move the pieces around without fucking everything else up
(1:04:58 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I'm pretty good at sliders so I kinda wish I had put myself on them but oh well
(1:05:05 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Jigsaws I'm about average at I feel like
(1:06:36 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) Rupert is clearly
(1:06:40 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) a challenge beast
(1:06:55 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Yeah he's helping us out so well ;p
(1:07:08 AM) EuroFatima: I can't keep up with the man.
(1:09:31 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I can only imagine all the challenge's he'll single handedly win us
(1:09:43 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) hes probably winning every challenge
(1:09:46 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) until the f2/f3
(1:09:47 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) tbh
(1:10:26 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I wouldn't be surprised
(1:14:22 AM) EuroFatima: He'll take the game in a clean sweep.
(1:15:10 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I know he's got my jury vote
(1:25:50 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) i'll volunteer as tribute
(1:25:56 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) if he goes home
(4/10/2015 1:16:51 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) Fredders
(1:16:57 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) I just talked to Fatima
(1:17:01 AM) EuroFatima: *whips hand fan out*
(1:17:02 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) about the tea you shared with me
(1:17:03 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Oh is she on?
(1:17:05 AM) EuroFatima: *fans self*
(1:17:07 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Okay cool I didnt know you were
(1:17:25 AM) EuroFatima: I'm usually very quiet. My apologies.
(1:17:29 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Nah, no worries
(1:17:40 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) we're going to have proceed
(1:17:40 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I've been kinda quiet/busy lately too
(1:17:42 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) very cautiously
(1:18:46 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) do u think
(1:18:49 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) we could fish around
(1:18:56 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) between carissa/sean/johnny
(1:19:05 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) and see if they have it
(1:19:07 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Yeah we could try to figure out who's got it
(1:19:11 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) we'd have to be subtle, not sure what we'd say to them
(1:19:15 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Exactly
(1:19:28 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) There's gotta be some way tho
(1:19:29 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) we have to figure out how to formally bring Eddie into the loop
(1:19:33 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) of us 4
(1:19:42 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Hrmm
(1:19:52 AM) EuroFatima: Trick him into thinking it's his idea.
(1:19:54 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Like, maybe try to make him think the alliance is mostly his idea so he doesn't know the three of us
(1:19:54 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) yeah
(1:19:56 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) exactly
(1:20:01 AM) EuroFatima: Men like to be in charge.
(1:20:10 AM) EuroFatima: Or at least the idea of being in charge.
(1:20:42 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) we should have brought in
(1:20:46 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) Carissa
(1:20:47 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) and said
(1:20:50 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) girls alliance!!!
(1:20:54 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) We could still do that
(1:21:01 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) It's never too late lol
(1:21:12 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Just would have to make a diff chat and stuff obviously
(1:21:13 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) What do you guys think?
(1:21:21 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I'd be fine with it
(1:21:42 AM) EuroFatima: I'd be fine with that. Being her partner today allowed us a chance to finally talk.
(1:22:24 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) yea you might be a good person
(1:22:26 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) to vet her out
(1:22:29 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) and see what shes about
(1:22:47 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) cuz i get good vibes from Eddie/Sean, but they seem so savy about games and stuff
(1:22:58 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) i havent played one of these in years, so all these challenges are new to me
(1:23:03 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) they seem to know everything
(1:23:14 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Yeah I've been out of it for a few months myself
(1:23:39 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I haven't really been able to talk to Eddie/Sean as much as I'd like tbh(most I've talked to Eddie was today when he talked to me about the idol being found)
(1:24:01 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Sean I just never seem to be around at the same time as sadly
(1:24:05 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) yea
(1:24:09 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) if we do this blindside
(1:24:16 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) we'd need like everyone on board
(1:24:19 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Yeah true
(1:24:22 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) so we dont ostracize anyone
(1:24:26 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Exctly
(1:24:38 AM) EuroFatima: I doubt everyone would be on board. He's bound to have made a connection somewhere.
(1:24:44 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Eh, that's true as well
(1:24:45 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) like i said, it could be irrelevant cuz we may just keep winning
(1:24:47 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) ugh yea
(1:24:51 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) fuck, didnt even think about that
(1:24:53 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) cuz he really is
(1:24:54 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) a tryhard
(1:25:20 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) so we really have to vet out
(1:25:22 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) this 4th member
(1:25:25 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) carefully
(1:25:27 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Very true
(1:25:32 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I'm thinking
(1:25:36 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) What the best way to go about this would be
(1:26:59 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) well if Eddie told you about this
(1:27:03 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) he might be the best person
(1:27:05 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) to bring in
(1:27:06 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Yeah that's true
(1:27:09 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Because at least he's honest about stuff
(1:27:11 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) he took a leap of faith
(1:27:13 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Exactly
(1:27:23 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) u should find out what he thinks of johnny
(1:27:26 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) and who he thinks it is
(1:27:35 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I'll hit him up next time I see him one
(1:27:38 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) on*

(1:29:36 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) yea and Fatima
(1:29:41 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) you can vet out Carissa
(1:29:53 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) I've talk to her too, but weve never gotten beyond the surface level
(1:30:02 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) "I'm 9. What is a boob?" stuff
(1:30:20 AM) EuroFatima: I can do that. I'll use today as a stepping stone.
(1:30:47 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) i wonder if anyone else is even talking tbh
(1:30:54 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) cuz has anyone else approached you 2?
(1:31:04 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) literally, i've initiated everything
(1:31:12 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) except for Johnny who randomly messages me
(1:31:13 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Like, conversation wise, no one EVER starts them with me
(1:31:14 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) So
(1:31:16 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) -shrug-
(1:31:20 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) I think it's just a quiet group in general
(1:31:31 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Eddie doing that earlier was like a miracle lol
(1:31:31 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) yea, what are the odds that nobody is talking to us, and they are talking to each other
(1:31:39 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) Doubtful tbh
(1:31:49 AM) [Tyras faves]: (frederique_van_der_wal) We're like the coolest people here so I can't see how they could resist us
(2:12:49 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) kk let me know what u guys think of this exchange
(2:13:27 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) johnny damonYeah we need to make sure we get as much voting power as possible1:11 AMLisi Linaresif we keep getting first1:11 AMLisi Linaresthen we know they dont have the idol1:11 AM
(2:13:35 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) god damn its too large
(2:13:41 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) let me just screencap it
(2:21:02 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) i.imgur.com/U1I5YQT.png
(2:21:04 AM) [Tyras faves]: (lisilinarestw) does that work?

I didn't know what else to talk about, so I posted the three most recent chats I've had.

[Katia Winter]

Works for me. Better than nothing.

[Fatima Siad]

I'm starting to find my niche. For someone like me it's hard to come into a game with a character I've never played before. I have to find my character's voice. Then and only then am I able to really begin playing the game. Until then I feel lost. That's where I've been, but I'm starting to understand my path better.

[Fatima Siad]

Ok, a little catch up. On Day 1 of the game I found myself in an alliance with Freders and Lisi. It was very sudden. I enjoy the company of both, so I'm fine with it. With this being our first TC, the tribe as a whole wishes to vote out Rupert because he's the laziest and least active. However, Johnny has apparently been annoying both Lisi and Freders with his arrogance and potential idol flaunting? I'm not quite sure if he has anything TBH, but if they have a problem with him...I'll stand by them. The ladies want to blindside Johnny tonight instead of taking the easy vote. Unfortunately, the only others who get on AIM...don't want to to vote Johnny. They all want to take out Poopert. So I guess with no support, that's what we'll end up doing.

[Fatima Siad]

I royally screwed up. I fell asleep not even an hour away from the challenge. It's bad enough I missed the challenge, I just had to miss the one that sends us to a Double TC. I'm so screwed.

[Fatima Siad]

(4:05:09 PM) survivor chick: Who did you vote last round,
(4:05:14 PM) survivor chick: For the tie
(4:05:23 PM) EuroFatima: Joaquin.
(4:05:42 PM) survivor chick: He helped me save your ass
(4:05:57 PM) survivor chick: Hes one of the ones who voted lisi instead of you
(4:06:26 PM) survivor chick: I suggest voting lisi this time as she wanted you gone
(4:06:51 PM) EuroFatima: I've cast my revote already, for Joaquin.
(4:07:14 PM) survivor chick: That honestly was probably a bad idea
(4:07:25 PM) survivor chick: As like i said hes one who voted to keep you
(4:07:29 PM) EuroFatima: I don't see how.
(4:07:52 PM) survivor chick: Because we could have you in his place easily
(4:08:03 PM) survivor chick: Or hers
(4:08:08 PM) survivor chick: And i convinced them to not
(4:08:53 PM) EuroFatima: How would that make me voting Joaquin a bad idea though?
(4:09:19 PM) survivor chick: Cause theyre using you as a vote to dispose of you next round basically
(4:09:21 PM) EuroFatima: I appreciate not being voted for, but you guys didn't ask anything of me and I didn't say I'd vote a certain way. Nor were any promises made.
(4:09:32 PM) EuroFatima: They would be doing that either way though.
(4:10:07 PM) survivor chick: No we actually wouldnt have. If we bother to keep you safe its cause we think you'll help the tribe win challenges. You apologized we decided a second chance would be worth it
(4:10:36 PM) EuroFatima: Nobody informed me of such plans or ideas.
(4:11:04 PM) survivor chick: I actually messaged you this morning when i got home from the ER saying we wanted to vote lisi
(4:11:13 PM) survivor chick: So yeah i did inform of vote plan
(4:11:15 PM) survivor chick: Nice try
(4:11:17 PM) EuroFatima: I wasn't on AIM this morning.
(4:11:39 PM) survivor chick: Offline messages still show up
(4:11:55 PM) EuroFatima: Only if your AIM is set to receive them.
(4:12:26 PM) survivor chick: Either way i attempted to so
(4:13:02 PM) EuroFatima: Yes, and either way I was not informed of such plans or ideas.
(4:13:28 PM) survivor chick: And seeing as i said id try save you it never crossed your mind to i dunno maybe ask?
(4:14:11 PM) EuroFatima: To ask what?
(4:14:20 PM) survivor chick: If there was a plan
(4:14:26 PM) survivor chick: I told you i heard you and lisi
(4:14:31 PM) survivor chick: I told you id try save you
(4:14:49 PM) survivor chick: You never even thought to ask what the plan was or anything to save you?
(4:16:06 PM) EuroFatima: No. If you had a plan, I figure you'd say so. It felt more like a plan to get Lisi out over an idol she doesn't have than a plan to get me on board with something. So asking for a plan that involved me moving forward with you never came to mind.
(4:16:41 PM) survivor chick: If i offer to save your ass next time maybe try asking for hows it going
(4:17:02 PM) survivor chick: As i ended up at the ER with a concussed four year old messaging you and going oh hai vote this didnt occur to me
(4:17:15 PM) survivor chick: I said it was you or her
(4:17:24 PM) survivor chick: I spent hours talking to people for yiu
(4:17:26 PM) survivor chick: You*
(4:17:33 PM) EuroFatima: I appreciate that.
(4:17:33 PM) survivor chick: Next time try asking the person
(4:18:05 PM) EuroFatima: I was told it was me, her or Joaquin. So I took the option that made the most sense with the information I was given.
(4:18:39 PM) survivor chick: Seeing as Joaquin helped save you.... ugh whatevrr

Kiss my black ass, Kat.

[Fatima Siad]

I can't wait to be voted out. The players are all assholes, my allies have thrown in the towel and after the bullshit call in that challenge I've lost interest in the other aspects of this game to which I was clinging. Here's my confessional for the round. Don't expect another until something changes for me to rejuvenate my desire to play.